Humbled

On June 15th, I was humbled. Although I thankfully had an inkling and a feeling of calm even before the storm that morning, the blow of the winds are hard to face.

I was laid off... not alone (160 due to corporate restructuring were...) but I was laid off...

Good news:
I was ready for a change...
God didn't desing me to sit in a cube....
It's summer!...
It was one week to the day that Kai was finishing 1st grade...
I can take some time to really think about what I want to do and pursue it... (easier than it sounds!)

Not-so-good news:
Kelly doesn't see this from my perspective...
I don't have another job lined up...
Although I did start some better habits, I'm not prepared (3-6 mos in savings etc etc...)
The feelings of hurt, embarrassment and anger come in random visits...

So.... I know- in my heart anyway (if only my head could always be on the same team) that there is something better out there for me. Something that fits me, that I will love and enjoy (as much as you can love and enjoy your work), and that will pay the bills. I have decided to get my real estate license....who knows if I can use it right away for profit, but I have the time to study now, so why wait?

I'm reading a lot...possibly to avoid other tasks/chores...but I've really sunk my head into some books (www.goodreads.com/MandyHenry for details), I'm enjoying Wednesday morning Yoga in the park (free!) and that is SO relaxing and rejuvinating! I've been able to have lots of girl time, Kaileigh time, doggy time, pool time.... and you'd think my house would be spotless, but much to Kelly's dismay, I'm having lots of fun in our beautiful weather!! Part of me is relaxed, happy and looking forward to whatever is to come. Until the fear creeps in...and man is it UGLY!

For now however, I'm going to enjoy my time, brainstorm, camp, play, and now study.... and we'll see what is to come!